Growing up sucks!

[Got Smoke?]

Ok my turn to rant.



Even though I'm only 19 years old I still know what it feels like to love someone, no matter what anybody says.



Well a week ago Sunday I broke up with my girlfriend of 14 months. She was also the younger sister of one of my long time friends, as well as my Hunting Equip/Advisor's daughter. She was my best friend as well as my girlfriend. She supported me in what I did (i. e. work on my trucks a lot) and even went to a pull with me once. All she ever did to me was love me and I pushed her away.



I don't really want to go into detail other than saying I realized what I was doing entirely to late, and now its been the only thing on my mind for the past week. The fact that I can't go back in time and change things has made this past week a really terrible time in my life.



Fortunately, we still talk, we're still going to be friends, we still say "I love you", and I'm still welcome in her home (I was even told to keep my housekey). Every time we talk about it she say's she know's we'll be back together some day, but just not now.



I only hope she's right.

 

[Whitmore]

I feal your pain

Mark,

All I can say is that if you truley Love this girl than you must make it you personelle commitment to show her that you have changed and are willing to forget the past , start over with a new lease on life.

I am lucky to have what I consider the finest woman on the face of the earth and will walk side by side with her thru anything that life dishes out. We have been married for 22 years now and this woman is without a dought the highlight of my life, I cannot see how I would ever make it without her!!!



Please keep this in mind



dont walk infront of her

dont walk behind her

simply walk with her



and above all... ... ... respect for each another is paramount



Hang in there son and both of you will be fine

 

[RHARVEY]

Whitmore... . I second that... .



My wife and I are working on 20 years... .







Rick

 

[dalton4]

Mark, maybe someone should show her this post. When you go public about your feelings for a person and sign your name to the statement should count for something.



It looks like she is still keeping you in the ballgame. Maybe she is the pitcher and just throwing you a "learning" curve ball.



Jerry

 

[lizzyhermit]

maybe she is letting you learn from your mistakes. My wife has put up with me for 27 years and often gives me the slack to realize I'm not the brightest bulb in the pack.

If your lady is that special to you let her know that by both words and actions and if the feeling is mutual then great things will result. Don't forget you broke up with her and she has reason to be hurt and doesn't want to be hurt again. Be sincere and give her time.

 

[Motorhead]

Mark, The old saying "You don't know what you got till it's gone" can be a real eye opener with relationships!

I met my wife in 1971... She was 19 and I was 20. Little did I know at that time that She was the best thing to come into my life. I Fiddle Farted around and made no committments to her for 5 years. She finally told me to take a hike and not to call or try to see her again. This was ok for about a month... I then realized what I had lost! I was a mad man trying to get her back to no avail... It made things worse!!! I finally conceded defeat and stopped calling her. About 6 months later, She called me and said she would like to talk. I lived 250 miles away but managed to get down to LA that weekend. I asked her to marry me 3 weeks later.



22years later, I almost lost her again when she got fed up with my drinking. I was out of control and she didn't think that I would or could give it up. We separated... I felt like a BIG GIANT HOLE had been torn thru me as I was trying to sober up and facing a divorce.



I had to give her ALOT of space and just showed up and suited up for my two girls. Thru the grace of GOD, We got back together and our lives together have never been better. I also have 3 years sober.



We will be celebrating our 25th anniversary on the 22nd of October.



As hard as it is to do, give her some space and don't crowd her. If she is around some mutual friends, she will see the difference in you. When in doubt P R A Y



Good women are hard to find!!!



Good luck, Chris

 

[klenger]

www.flowers.com

 

[Got Smoke?]

Originally posted by dalton4

Mark, maybe someone should show her this post. When you go public about your feelings for a person and sign your name to the statement should count for something.



It looks like she is still keeping you in the ballgame. Maybe she is the pitcher and just throwing you a "learning" curve ball.



Jerry

I'm really trying not to crowd her, but going from seeing someone everyday (just about) for 14 months to not seeing them very much is very hard. I really wish somebody would show her the post, but I don't have any friends in my area that read the boards. I do wish someone would show her though.

 

[klenger]

FYI, only TDR members can see the "Other" forum.

 

[baby.driver]

Why'd ya 'push her away' in the first place?

 

[Got Smoke?]

Originally posted by baby. driver

Why'd ya 'push her away' in the first place?

Thank you for reading my post in its entirety.

I don't really want to go into detail other than saying I realized what I was doing entirely to late, and now its been the only thing on my mind for the past week.

Guys I appreciate all of your support, it means a lot. Also, I have had members contact me about possibly sending her a copy of the post... . thank you for the offer but I don't believe that is a good thing to do at this time. I'm trying to give her the space she wants. :{

 

[baby.driver]

Yep, 19 says it all.

 

[Steve St.Laurent]

I'm closing this thread at the request of got moke? If anyone wants to send him any more support please PM him.