Attention: TDR Forum Junkies 
For the past 2 days, I've been debating on wether or not to post this. I've decided to post in case this may help anyone here on the board, either personally or with someone they know or care about.
Karen was a 46 year old woman, who had recently (4 months ago) underwent a full mastectomy of her left breast. She had reconstructive surgery, where the doctors had used muscle and tissue from her back, and implants to reconstruct her breast. The doctors had gotten all of the cancer, and as late as a week and a half ago, inserted another implant to even her out and started reconstruction to make her look natural.
She has also, unfortunately been battling with substance abuse for years. Ever since I've known her (I've worked here 8-1/2 years, she has worked here 22 years) she has been talking on and off about ending her life. One day she would be happy as can be, the next, she would be very hard to talk to.
She had seeked professional help after she tried once before, but she stopped. One of the other girls that work here would talk with her all the time, and has talked her out of this more than once. She even tried Sunday night.
There were radio reports on the way to work Monday morning of a woman that was struck and killed by a Boston to Washington D. C. train, in an apparent suicide, Sunday night around 10pm right behind where I work. I thought it was sad news.
11:00 am Monday morning, all office employees were brought into the conference room for what was the most terrible meeting we have ever had here. The President of our company notified us that Karen (our co-worker) took her own life the night before. She was the one we had heard about that was hit by the train.
I now know why people set up small shrines at accident sights. I walked behind the building during lunch on Monday, I don't know why, but I needed to. I met the Amtrak crew that was cleaning up. The lead person brought me to where they found her. I had brought some flowers I picked from a bush outside our office and buried them near the rails for Karen, hoping and praying that she is finally at peace. Seeing the place she was at helped.
Everyone here at work is having a hard time working. I keep thinking, that if Karen knew how much everyone around her cared, that maybe she would not have done this.
There are so many un-answered questions.
Please, remember that life is valuable. Tough at times, tougher at others, and great at still others.
I hope sharing this story will help someone. It has helped me.
Thank you for reading this.
Please say a prayer for Karen.
Karen was a 46 year old woman, who had recently (4 months ago) underwent a full mastectomy of her left breast. She had reconstructive surgery, where the doctors had used muscle and tissue from her back, and implants to reconstruct her breast. The doctors had gotten all of the cancer, and as late as a week and a half ago, inserted another implant to even her out and started reconstruction to make her look natural.
She has also, unfortunately been battling with substance abuse for years. Ever since I've known her (I've worked here 8-1/2 years, she has worked here 22 years) she has been talking on and off about ending her life. One day she would be happy as can be, the next, she would be very hard to talk to.
She had seeked professional help after she tried once before, but she stopped. One of the other girls that work here would talk with her all the time, and has talked her out of this more than once. She even tried Sunday night.
There were radio reports on the way to work Monday morning of a woman that was struck and killed by a Boston to Washington D. C. train, in an apparent suicide, Sunday night around 10pm right behind where I work. I thought it was sad news.
11:00 am Monday morning, all office employees were brought into the conference room for what was the most terrible meeting we have ever had here. The President of our company notified us that Karen (our co-worker) took her own life the night before. She was the one we had heard about that was hit by the train.
I now know why people set up small shrines at accident sights. I walked behind the building during lunch on Monday, I don't know why, but I needed to. I met the Amtrak crew that was cleaning up. The lead person brought me to where they found her. I had brought some flowers I picked from a bush outside our office and buried them near the rails for Karen, hoping and praying that she is finally at peace. Seeing the place she was at helped.
Everyone here at work is having a hard time working. I keep thinking, that if Karen knew how much everyone around her cared, that maybe she would not have done this.
There are so many un-answered questions.
Please, remember that life is valuable. Tough at times, tougher at others, and great at still others.
I hope sharing this story will help someone. It has helped me.
Thank you for reading this.
Please say a prayer for Karen.
